There's a shadow on the wall that's nine feet tall, but I'm not going to freak out 'cause it's obviously nothing at all. Don't you hate it when you scared for nothing? me more than others -- I'm one of those people that get scared of everything, I wish I could say I was one of those tough guys... but I can't. I think I'm happy because I'm stupid -- and if I wasn't so happy I wouldn't be scared of dying. I guess I've always needed to be needed... and I never really mean to be mean. But ANYWAY, today was exciting because a) It was partly sunny b) I was in a good mood c) I think I like someone and d) I'm entering a film contest. ALL of which make me happy.
My life has been looking up lately, everything about ti is great; as my friend once so eloquently put it, "I love life". A week ago I was pretty down about everything, but spring is right around the corner -- and all the hate, jealousy, sadness and negative things in general have been suppressed in the corner of my mind. I feel good about myself, I've been actually doing homework and actually enjoying it. But enough about me... how are you?
So I've decided that this is my life, and I'm going to make the best of it... It's MY tiger; and it's definitely MY heart. I think my heart just grew two sizes.
Monday, February 19, 2007
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Waiting for an Absolution
Nowhere to run, no one to talk to. Nothing to do but wait. Wait to hear. Wait to see. Wait for an absolution that will never come. There's nothing in life that can be one hundred percent absolute. And that's just the thing that has been getting me down lately.
There's nothing we can ever be sure of -- not a person I can talk to and expect to know exactly what I am going through; and this is why I have a blog (which nobody reads). I don't know where to turn, I don't know who to tell so I'll just tell the world. I'm lost. We're all lost, sort of. I want to say "I love you" but I don't have anyone to say it to. I'm like coffee without a cup; there's no hole to fill, and for the first time in my life I feel very depressed and lonesome. Could it be the shitbag weather or the horrid lack of social interaction in my life? Whatever it may be it's getting me down. All I do is sit around and write. Write about my life, write about the girl whose tearing me apart, write about my best friend who doesn't act like it ,write about how my life is going nowhere and I'm not doing anything to turn around and fix it. The wind is gone from under my wings.
Life is a giant metaphor for what happens when you toss a bunch of strangers together and expect them to get along and interact. Is that what it really is? I haven't been myself lately and it's beginning to to become apparent to the people surrounding me. I just want to scream out to everyone "I'm lost please help me!" -- but my voice is gone. I'm in a puddle of confusion and tangled in a web of lies right now. Hopefully I'll start feeling better soon, but at the rate I'm going now this could take a while or a fucking miracle.
There's nothing we can ever be sure of -- not a person I can talk to and expect to know exactly what I am going through; and this is why I have a blog (which nobody reads). I don't know where to turn, I don't know who to tell so I'll just tell the world. I'm lost. We're all lost, sort of. I want to say "I love you" but I don't have anyone to say it to. I'm like coffee without a cup; there's no hole to fill, and for the first time in my life I feel very depressed and lonesome. Could it be the shitbag weather or the horrid lack of social interaction in my life? Whatever it may be it's getting me down. All I do is sit around and write. Write about my life, write about the girl whose tearing me apart, write about my best friend who doesn't act like it ,write about how my life is going nowhere and I'm not doing anything to turn around and fix it. The wind is gone from under my wings.
Life is a giant metaphor for what happens when you toss a bunch of strangers together and expect them to get along and interact. Is that what it really is? I haven't been myself lately and it's beginning to to become apparent to the people surrounding me. I just want to scream out to everyone "I'm lost please help me!" -- but my voice is gone. I'm in a puddle of confusion and tangled in a web of lies right now. Hopefully I'll start feeling better soon, but at the rate I'm going now this could take a while or a fucking miracle.
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Harry Chest and the Deathly Hallows
Well, if you haven't heard that the final book; Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows is coming out on July 21st, 2007 then you've been hiding under a rock. And if you haven't heard about Daniel Radcliffe's steamy photo shoot where it features him naked advertising the play he is in called Equus... then you also have been hiding under a rock. First off I'd like to say that Dan will no longer be known as Harry Potter... but rather Harry Chest. Yeah; if you're interested in those pictures you can check them out at www.mugglenet.com .
Okay, so I don't usually talk about news; but this is news that effects me in a big way. J.K. Rowling has announced the release of the 7th and final Harry Potter book on February 1st, 2007. Okay, when I first found out I went crazy! I was running around my room thinking about what I was going to do! And then it began to set in; this is the last time I'm going to be this excited about a book. The very last! Most people don't understand my overwhelming love for the Harry Potter series! But the final book is going to be a very large emotional experience for me. This July is going to be crazy!
July 13th, 2007: I get to go to the premiere or Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix movie.
July 21st, 2007: I get to go get my copy of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.
July 22nd, 2007: I get to fall into a downward spiral of depression because of the harsh reality of no more Harry Potter books.
WOW, what a July. It is going to be the best and worst July of my life; best because it's officially Harry Potter month; worst because it's the end of the books. I can't wait, but at the same time I don't want it to come. It's like I'm in a movie that is really good, yet I don't want to be around to see the ending.
Okay, so I don't usually talk about news; but this is news that effects me in a big way. J.K. Rowling has announced the release of the 7th and final Harry Potter book on February 1st, 2007. Okay, when I first found out I went crazy! I was running around my room thinking about what I was going to do! And then it began to set in; this is the last time I'm going to be this excited about a book. The very last! Most people don't understand my overwhelming love for the Harry Potter series! But the final book is going to be a very large emotional experience for me. This July is going to be crazy!
July 13th, 2007: I get to go to the premiere or Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix movie.
July 21st, 2007: I get to go get my copy of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.
July 22nd, 2007: I get to fall into a downward spiral of depression because of the harsh reality of no more Harry Potter books.
WOW, what a July. It is going to be the best and worst July of my life; best because it's officially Harry Potter month; worst because it's the end of the books. I can't wait, but at the same time I don't want it to come. It's like I'm in a movie that is really good, yet I don't want to be around to see the ending.
Friday, February 02, 2007
Why Didn't I Know Before?
Alright, well it's another day; and another blog. i usually don't blog about pointless things people don't care about but today I've decided I'm going to share with the world of myspace a revolutionary product called Yahoo! Widgets. I discovered them a few weeks ago and I've been hooked on them since. It's little things you can download to your desktop on your computer that hosts stuff like weather, translators, games, quick picture views, links to websites and a bunch of other really cool stuff. So now I'm asking myself... why didn't I know about these before...? HOW DID I LIVE? I can check which movies are playing where and what the temperature is without even googling it. It's just another product for the lazy man -- as the weather one tells me "Yahoo! Weather: if you're too lazy to go outside."
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Thursday, February 01, 2007
Korean ID's, Cyworld and Myspace
GOD! Why does everything in North America have to suck?
And why does everything in Korea require a goddamn identification code?!
It's that^^ right there. But you're probably wondering; why does Matt need a Korean ID code? And you're probably also wondering; What the hell is a Korean ID code??!!.
Alright, well I'll explain what it is first. It's an ID, similar to a North American SIN number. Everyone gets one when they're born and they have to know it for almost everything. When they sign up for websites and such they need to punch in their code.
I guess it's either a security measure for the Korean government to monitor their citizens or a way to keep foreigners out of their websites. But it pisses me off! So I needed one because there's this thing called Cyworld (www.cyworld.co.kr) and it's like mysapce but it's wayyyy better. It just looks better and it functions better; everything about ti is better. In fact, there's more people in Asia that have a cyworld than people in America who have myspace. It's that amazing. It's beautifully designed -- like everything in Asia. So I wanted to talk to my friend Eunsu on it; but I have to sign up for it, but I don't have an ID code! GAH! Like jsut look at how much nicer it is that myspace:
Ugly:
Wonderful:
AMERICA NEEDS TO GET BETTER AT WEBSITE DESIGN!
And that's my beef of the day. Piss me off.
And why does everything in Korea require a goddamn identification code?!
It's that^^ right there. But you're probably wondering; why does Matt need a Korean ID code? And you're probably also wondering; What the hell is a Korean ID code??!!.
Alright, well I'll explain what it is first. It's an ID, similar to a North American SIN number. Everyone gets one when they're born and they have to know it for almost everything. When they sign up for websites and such they need to punch in their code.
I guess it's either a security measure for the Korean government to monitor their citizens or a way to keep foreigners out of their websites. But it pisses me off! So I needed one because there's this thing called Cyworld (www.cyworld.co.kr) and it's like mysapce but it's wayyyy better. It just looks better and it functions better; everything about ti is better. In fact, there's more people in Asia that have a cyworld than people in America who have myspace. It's that amazing. It's beautifully designed -- like everything in Asia. So I wanted to talk to my friend Eunsu on it; but I have to sign up for it, but I don't have an ID code! GAH! Like jsut look at how much nicer it is that myspace:
Ugly:
Wonderful:
AMERICA NEEDS TO GET BETTER AT WEBSITE DESIGN!
And that's my beef of the day. Piss me off.
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